Too busy

It's like the blogging world has suddenly fallen a bit silent.

I've got 2 problems that contribute to that.

1. I'm having hard drive issues. As in, it's bursting at the seams with photos and music, and is a bit fussy because of it. Thus, I can also load no more photos. Yet I still have so many vacation pics!

2. I'm soooo busy. I had one sort of day off, and I was so exhausted that I sat in the middle of my filthy house, in dirty clothes, and turned on the tv and did not walk away until bedtime. I was so tired, I just decided not to eat, because I was too tired to get up and cook. And too lazy and poor to pick up the phone and order pizza.

I've got the health inspection for the espresso stand opening coming up on Wednesday morning, and I'm going crazy trying to make sure everything is clean and ready. Everything is getting down to the wire! So with all this cafe stuff coming together (grand opening is 1 month away...shhh), and a fill in job, and learning a second job, I'm going crazy.

I'm not a good multitasker. I'm not a type A personality. I always struggle to find energy. So when I get so many things going at once, I've learned that I have a short shelf life. Sometimes I like to place bets on myself, to see how long I'll last. It kind of amuses me, really. I usually can go about 3 weeks at the super hectic, multiple projects, working 7 days a week thing. And then I'll totally crash, and spend a whole day crying and eating ice cream and cursing life, and someone will try to encourage me, and I'll drop some activity, and then feel free, and then lazy, and then I'll add two more projects to make up for it.

Funny thing about growing up is how you begin to get to know yourself. I remember the times when I really did believe I could do things like that for like a 2 year commitment without ever feeling stressed. But now I know my pattern inside and out. But I still keeping doing it. That's the funny part.

Well, I guess the point is, that if I'm getting this dear diary on here, it means that I'm tired, and I should be sleeping instead of writing.


On a side note, I came home tonight to a recently cleaned and beautified patio, with a new dart board on it and a cocktail made for me by some friends. That was a nice way to unwind. It was my first dart game ever. And I almost won. Quite fun.